Child of God

Orientation

2009-06-13T19:16:00.000+08:00

i'm so excited that i dont need to find things to do anymore!
Orientation is next week!
New friends!

I'm starting to miss everyone's presence...

2009-04-13T03:23:00.000+08:00

Its the start of WORK!

2009-02-12T03:51:00.002+08:00

LATER TODAY I"M GONNA START WORK.....

.. yup its time to discipline my body clock too. Had been sleeping like a bat these few months. So gotta start switching back my body clock, before my mom nag at me again (seems like my mom and cheryl's mom is quite alike in this.). But I wonder whether I'll be able to wake up 6am tomorrow when right now I'm still so awake. HAHA! I guess working is better than staying at home not doing anything right? YUP! At least I have something to be busy about now. :D

Today is the start of everything. Cause from today onwards, I'm gonna start....
1. waking up early
2. going to work
3. control my diet
4. exercising
5. learning how to drive (cool huh?)
6. going out with my family, siblings and of course friends!!! (we'll go shopping, to fantasy world, play all kinds of ball games,etc)
7. ....ETC.... (can't think of them right now)

WHOOO~~!! Its gonna be great great great!! Love it! :D

1 John 4:7
"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God."
(No link to my blog entry)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

2009-01-29T00:20:00.006+08:00

I'm a little lag in wishing this right? HEHE! PS..

Anyway, recently I've been in Indonesia.
At first when I was back, I was very worried how am I gonna celebrate my birthday?? How's my chinese new year this year is gonna be like with my friends (Chelsea, Michael, Romi,...) almost all moved out to a place further away from my house?
Haha! sometimes I wonder when am i gonna stop thinking so much. LOL

But it was a different thing when i arrived my indonesia house. I got totally numb. Even on the day before my birthday, I don't have the feeling of excitement, like i used to have, at all, and I can forgot that it was until Melly asked me how am I gonna celebrate it.
To my surprise, in the middle of the night, when my parents were back, they sat beside me and told me, that they've arranged everything for me, and what I needa do is just go to salon for some make up, hair done, etc..

The celebration was quite cool. the MC was funny, just alittle wierd.. cause the karaoke, songs sang was all the lao ge.. Haha! also can't blame, the elders wanna enjoy also mah. :)
Its beeing covered up by the games!! haha! my brosss, including cousins......... (HAHAHA!)
Anyway, my closest friend, Melly, was there too!!
And we took thousands of photos!!! :P
(It'll be great if all my close friends in singapore could join us)

Then it comes to CNY..
Out mith my family to get angpaos....
Have a little gathering with my long lost friends there..
Catched up with my cousins and knowing more of them are married and more children borned!! hahah! Meaning more NEPHEWS AND NIECE! THEY ARE SUPER DUPER CUTE!!!!! love the.. <33

just went out with melly and friends(M & R)..
indeed melly tuh cerewet buangeet!!!!
Gila, dia sekali ngomong, tuh kyk radio(non-stop) HAHA!
Melly temen paling baik ku..
cepetan libur dah gt, jenguk gw disingapur ya?? gw ajak loe jln2 nek! okeoke? hehe!
Dah gt pulang dari rmh melly nya naik motor lg.. wezz! enak BO!! Hbsnya gw dah lama bgt gak naik motor nih. Rasanya adem deh.. seneng gw. :D

Okay.. ciaoww!!!
see ya!!

Hi, Bye.

2009-01-20T09:21:00.002+08:00

Hi Guys! results were out, and for those who were with me should know how did feel about it.
Anyway, I'm flying off today, to Indonesia again, and I'll probably be back on the 30th of January, to receive my posting and maybe have the medical check up. But the second time I come back, for the medical check up, it'll probably be a 2 days stay. And I'll be off for my holiday again.
I'm gonna miss everyone in Singapore. Especially those who have really cared for me all these while.
C, H, Jy, Ly, W. I'll really miss you guys.
When I'm back I hope you'll see a better evi. :D

Of course also not forgetting Garrett, my great leader.

Relationship is build on trust.....

GUITAR!!!

2008-11-25T21:23:00.007+08:00

I've just got my FIRST guitar yesterday, and I'm super happy and excited about it!!! :P
Thanks guys for helping me to choose the guitar! :)

Done! I'm off practising my guitar! see ya for TGIO (Thank God Its Over)!! :D

Happy Birthday Belle!!!!!!!!! Let's celebrate!! :D

2008-11-22T13:59:00.003+08:00

We're not going for Asia Conference today, so here I am blogging. Cause if not I'll be at Expo. Hahah! Just for information for those who didn't know what is Asia Conference, its a Christian conference, where there are lots of great preacher, singer, bands from all over the WORLD coming here(Expo) to be with us! Thousandssss of peope all over Asia are flying to Singapore to come for this conference, isn't that amazing?
For further information, see this... http://www.asiaconference.org.sg/

For the first day, It was super great! There was so many people that all the Halls we had in Expo were all filled to the max!!! How do I know? Cause I was doing usher at Hall 10, which is the last overflow hall to be opened, and its packed to the MAX!

The second day was powerful man! I ushering at Hall8, the main hall, at night. I tell you the presence of God was like WOW! WOW! WOW! Pastor Ulf Ekman had an altercall at the end of the night session! It's just powerful.

Third day, Friday, which is also yesterday, was great too! The people started queueing at 3:15pm, when the night session starts at 7:30pm! Seeing the hunger of the se people, it made mefelt so encouraged and motivated to be more hungry for the word and presence of God. The queue even went out all the way to the carpark, that we need to have a holding area at Hall10, as we're concern about the safety of all the people. I felt that today is the day I was exposed to all kinds of situation, and learnt the most. I've learnt how to love my enemy too! Hahah!
(Kaye is the woman of the day man! I love her man! :) )

Today is combined service! Its gonna be mind blowing, as C3 is here with us today!!! I'm just so excited!

growing in God

Back in ACTION!!!

2008-11-16T05:26:00.001+08:00

Hey I'm back!! After long months of chionging for O'levels, finally it came into an end! And I'm back to do so much more for the kingdom of God!(Happy!! :D )
Actually, even before the last paper ends, I'm back for usher! Anyway, CHC Powerhouse was great!! There are like averaging 1000 people every Powerhouse!! I see so many adults who are so hungry to be in the presence of God. Though its so early in the morning, and they'll have to rush for work after that, they still turn up! I really want to be like that when I grow older! :D And I saw so any people that I know there!! My Sec4 and Sec3 schoolmates and my tuition friends! Its just so exciting, seeing so many people that I know, having God in their lives! :)
And the service when pastors came back from the conference in London, was super powerful! God ministered to me... And its...great...!

Next we had NICK VUJICIC SERVICES!!!! I was SUPER DUPER HAPPY lha!! XINYAN CAME!!! :D She has been in the list of people who I wanna bring to church. I simply just want her to have an eternal life in Heaven, having God in her life, and serving in the house of God with me, Liyue and Hezron. The services were really funny and impacting! After the whole thing, many lives were changed. That moments made me so happy that I teared. Hahah! For the first time I teared for joy. :D Its just so amazing!One of the days I did usher too!!! Wahahaha!! I was very happy that I'm back on usher!!! For those who were taken down before will understand. :)

Then we had services with Pastor Kong Hee!!! Remembered that the first time I hear him preached was in hoGc last year, in FTMS house, and he said that he'll come back again when we hit 1000. We've did it, so he's here! :D
It was POWERFUL lha!! The presence of God were strong. Its GREAT lha! For those who have missed it, I advice you to come next year. And you know what?! Ellice, Zeke's schoolmate who just came for Nick Vujicic Service, brought her friend for that event! Amazing isn't it? She reminded me on myself, when I just came to Heart of God church! hahah! Just Amazing!!!

Yesterday, or rather on friday, I went out with Jeremyquek and yue to starbucks to chill chill.. hahah! Then me and Quek went to pop by Xueli's working place at CK.. hahah! Was quite ps actually, cause we went in just to say Hi to Xueli, then we didn't buy anything from there, so we acted like as if we're looking for some stuffs before we left. Haha! Then I met all the SLs plus Yilin and Shanyong, Benny(zoneF) were there too! We went "shopping"! Shermaine and me really "shopped"!!! Hahah! SO MUCH FUN!! Until we reach Superman's shop, we met Xinyi and Peishan they all, then the SL girls bought the superman top! And we're wearing it on one of the days together. Wouldn't it be so cool? :D
At night, I stayed at WENDYNEO"S HOUSE!! I asked lots of questions and I've learnt alot!! Really wanna thank Wendy for sharing with me so many, though she was tired. She also showed me her reports!! So cool! :D

Coming up...
Jersey Weekend!! We've Soccer games! Captains ball for those who don't play soccer, XBOX and PS3 too! Oh ya, not forgetting the boxing games too! hahah! Its just happening! So if you've not came, you MUST not miss tomorrow as its the last day! :D

19-25 Nov will be Asia Conference!!! People all over Asia are coming together!! And I'm going to USHER them to their destiny in God!! Hehehe!! Will be a SHIOK experience...!!

Then TGIO(Thank God Its Over)!!

Lots moree......

Wahahah! Its just so exciting!!

See you there guys!

My NEAT table!!! :D

2008-08-23T01:51:00.006+08:00

Isn't it neat??!!! hahahah!!! :D
I'm so sick just now, but I can do so much things! From shifting all the bed frames, beds, tables and clearing all my stuffs and shift it to my new room. Feeling so accomplished!! I've made myself promised lastt week to clean and pack my stuffs within 2weeks, and I really did it!! XD

Anyway, seems like there's no books on my table right?? Actually all my books are placed in another place. Cause my study table alone cannot hold all the books. So I put my books all in boxes, according to the subjects, and all sorted out nicely! :D
So when I need to study or do any work, I just need to take that box and start doing my stuffs! :))
Wondering why there's a name Benjamin? Hahah! Don't think too much. Its just a role of a pig named benjamin, that i was acting when i was sec2. Hahah!

And also, its so happening in church!! SO SO FUNNY!! NO ONE should miss it on SUNDAY!!! XD
I'm so excited about it!! :D

It's not how you start, It's how you END!!

2008-08-13T21:52:00.005+08:00

I got back my Chinese O'Level results yesterday!!
It was very sad for me at first,
Cause most of my friends manage to get at least a B3,
While I get a C5.
But still, there are still so many things that encourages me that day!
Even though my grade is C5,
I did well for my Oral, which is very surprising to me!
I got a DISTINCTION!! :D

Wondering why my title is
"It's not how you start, It's how you END!!" ?
It's because...
I had my English O'Level oral yesterday too!
and I didn't do that well in the reading as well as the Picture discussion,
BUT.. I felt that I did WELL for my CONVERSATION!!
I managed to turn the invigilator's facial expression from frowning to SMILING!!!!
and she even laughed along with me, as I shared about my Grandma! :D
I'm so happy!
I believe that I'll have a good grade for that. :))
It's not how you start, It's how you END!!

A new beginning..

2008-08-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

Before

I'm renovating my new house!!

Everything is going to stretch me alot.

Even before shifting in, I'm going to renovate my own house, along with my parents of course. :D

Gonna spend so much time with them, and that made me feel so HAPPY!

I now can spend time with my family more!

After I shift in, my dad said that I'm gonna be the head,

hence, I gotta take care of everything.

From planning how to pay the bills, to ensuring that everything in the house are functioning well and in place.

Moreover, O'Level is coming!!!

I got more balls to juggle with.

I believe I can do all these,

through Jesus Christ! :D

Ce Meling and me are going to show my guardian that we can be independent, :))

??????What is going to be like after renovation????????

FOP~~!!! I'm already missing it!

2008-08-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

FOP is really a mind blowing experience for me!
That was the 2nd time I did ushering for FOP.

From the first day I stepped into Indoor stadium, which was on the Thursday,
everything has already blown me off.
Even the crew there are operating in like a section leader or 2nd I/C standard in heart of God church.
But that was not all yet!

Ushering for the 3 days for FOP, is really an eye opener for me.
How the ushering is done for FOP and hoGc normal service, is really a different ballgame!
We got to be really fast,
cause once the gates are open, people was literally running in!
That's why we gotta be FAST and ALERT! :D
I have really learnt a lot from ushering with CHC ushers.
They are really so professional in ushering.
I've learnt a lot especially from the Chief ushers and section leaders of CHC ushers,
during the debrief and times, when brother Eugene talked to us.
By just observing alone, I've really learnt a lot.
Absorbing the congregation fast,
Observe the other sections to make sure that all the sections are equal,
LOTS MORE!

The 2nd of FOP was the BEST!
I was in leading the Balcony ushers.
Its really challenging for me, yet FUN!
Knowing that the whole Balcony was filled,
I was rejoicing! :D
I know that I've ushered so many people to their destiny!

I believe everyone has learnt alot from ushering for FOP and CHC ushers.
And we're going to apply it in ushering in our own church's service!
EXCITING!! :D
Usher Ministry 2.0

MABEL!!!

2008-07-24T22:59:00.003+08:00

I MISS MABEL!!!!

Remember those times when we hanged out together. Doing Jeremy Quek's present, baking the chocolate cake.. with yue and ahong hahah! DECEMBER!!!! I'm so looking forward to that day when she comes back! And I'm gonna give her a big BIG HUG!! :)

Hahah! quite random, but I really miss her..

Breakthrough!!

2008-07-21T23:45:00.002+08:00

Growth is easy!
E5 attendance was 24!!
From 14 to 24!!
Its EASY!!! :)
Leaders in Ezone are going to rise up like never before!

Another good news!!!
Junyuan is in REVIVAL!!! Just last week alone, JYSS has an attendance of 26!
If you wanna know how. It was through prayers! All the Junyuan people have been really praying and praying and praying! :D

Consistency & Security.

THANK YOU GOD!

2008-07-17T23:14:00.006+08:00

Days passed!

And I've been rather busy recently.

Now, I'm gonna continue reading the Fourth Dimension, by Pastor Cho Yonggi (a GREAT man of God, who builds the LARGEST CHURH of 750,000!!!)

Looking back from the moment I've took a step of faith to obey God, I've realised how much I've grown since then. Its really amazing how God works.

The timid girl who have been avoiding her fierce teacher, has turned into someone whom has drawn strength from God to face that particular teacher every single day, knowing that God will keep His promise. Now she no longer pick on me, but i guess, now, its more of, there is nothing for her to pick on anymore! :D

Since last two weeks, I've been requesting, specifically, from God, that she will somehow thought of Heart of God Church, after school, when she was lingering around with her friends. And truelly enough, few days later, she came back home and told me that she saw Mok, whom have reminded her of church!! She then started to ask about church people, and whether people in church still remembers her! Isn't it AMAZING!!??

These few days, I can feel "the HARVEST is COMING!", "BEDOK GREEN SECONDARY!"!!! I see REVIVAL in BGSS! 5!!!!

Nothing is going to stop anyone from growing and be a winner. As we're BORN WINNERS!

Huili, Xueli and Cheryl are really such WONDERFUL people! I'm so proud of them! They are really growing Spiritually! FOURTH DIMENSION!

Iris! You're born to WIN the RACE! Jiayou for all your upcoming TESTS. GO! GO! GO! :D

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Never ending story....

2008-07-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

!!!!!!!Happy Birthday Wendily!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!Happy Birthday Philo!!!!!

I'm so excited!! Can't wait for weekend to arrive!!
1). E5 & E3 combine CG, this friday!
2). After CG we're buying ingredients for making the foods, for the picnic, to Cheryl's house!
3). Then we'll also be studying at Cheryl's house for at least 2hours!!
Can we do it?? YES, WE CAN!! :D
4). After that we'll start work!!
5). Discipleship class! So looking forward to it!
6). E5 outing at East Coast Park!! FOODSSS + BALL GAMES!!! Lovely! :D
7). Service!!!!! <33

See you! muackss!!

I will go where You send me!

2008-06-29T22:40:00.007+08:00

Jeremy Quek's new hairstyle!!Jeremy, Come out of army quickly! EeChan!!

Michelle!!! Superman!!

Xueli!!!

Iris!!!!

The "li" sisters(xueli&huili)! ahhaha! Huili is super funny!

Zhang didn't know that JeremyQuek and Jianhong are wearing Checked blouse. hahaha! They flow!

Everything aren't the same anymore! I'm growing! and today we just took our Zone's "testpaper"! So excited, about the future! Knowing that this arranngements are for us to grow spiritually. I'm so excited!! :D

Its really time for all of us to rise up, as we leave our comfort zone, and grow even more stronger each day. Keep on praying, and everthing will start to change!! :D
You might have to let go of some of your CGmates, however be assured that this plan is good for all of us! TRUST GOD! After all we're still in the same zone, or if not we're in the same church, as a body!

Looking back, it's really amazing how much I've grown! Thank you God! Thank you God for putting such great leaders in my life! Love them!!

School Has Start!!

2008-06-23T19:00:00.003+08:00

Whoo!!! I had a good start!

I wasn't late,
I wasn't restless in class,
I was paying attention in class,
I did what my form teacher asked me to do,
I am a good student!!
I'm gonna sustain it! :D

I was initially quite lazy to go to school to school today,
But I have faith that from today onwards everything will be GOOD!
Thank you GOD!!!:D
Thank you Wendy!!! :)

Gonna do my homeworkssssssssss!!!!!

Be an OBEDIENT CHILD of GOD!!!!!
and you'll fly!

Back!!

2008-06-22T01:41:00.011+08:00

Saturday, 21 June 2008

I'm so happy, that I'm back in church!! I miss the Church! I miss the people! I miss the building! and obviously I miss praising God in Church!! I miss everyone, everything!!
Pastor How preached more specifically about the
'SPIRITUAL ADOPTION of FAMILY & FRIENDS'
It really encouraged me to reach out to my family more, as all the while I've trying to get my family saved, but I wasn't praying that much about it. So from today on, I'm gonna start praying for SALVATION in my family. Adopting my parents and siblings!! GOOOOO!!!!!!

While I'm in Indonesia......

MAMA & PAPA eating...

Myshia!!!

Love them!

2008-06-04T01:27:00.002+08:00

Shifting house!

2008-06-03T00:24:00.004+08:00

I'm shifting house to Balestier in August!!!!
Few days ago mom called me and told me that she's gonna let me shift out from my guardian place!! Doesn't that sounds wonderful?! :D

However, its at serangoon area!!
So far from CHURCH!!!
So far from SCHOOL!!!
Oh NOOO!!!!
I'm talking about going to school from Serangoon to Bedok!
No longer Eunos to Bedok.
Not even Tampines!
I've gotta wake up even earlier to get to school now. :(

But with God, nothing is impossible!
I'm gonna P.U.S.H! :)

Happy Birthday Garrett!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-03T00:11:00.000+08:00

Back Blogging!

2008-06-01T00:04:00.002+08:00

Wow! I just realised that i've not been blogging! Hahah!
But all these while, I've been through lots of things..good and bad.
However God is always there for me, encouraging me, lifting me up again, motivate me in the things I'm doing.
Love to be in His presence.

Pastor Tan came on Friday! It was like, SUPERB!
Going out there and reach out to the LOST.
Pray. Until. Something. Happens!!
P.U.S.H!!!!
It really motivates me to reach out to the lost out there.
"The Harvests are Plenty,
but the Labourers are few."
Keep going Evi. I was really ministered by God, 3days ago, during my Quiet Time.
It really hit me so hard.
It seems like a disciple from God.
It seems like a strong wake up call from God.

Secondary School Camp was so exciting man!
Using our sense of touch, we guess what it in that BLACK BOX!
And there are things like FROG, INTESTINES, etc!!!
Can you imagine?!!

Anyway, I've been ushering for the consequitive 2days. Love it! :D
Can't wait for FOP!!!!!!!!!!!

Woke up!!

Tabernacle Prayer! , Faith-filled!

2008-05-10T23:50:00.002+08:00

????Curious?????

Go Check It Out!

www.redrain.sg

Trying to make our eyes BIG BIG!!

Acting Monkey..

Wow! Days after my last paper seems to be so fruitful!

Went to Jasmine's house right after that! Hahah! Was really a great challenge to look for her without contacting her. Jasmine has a dog!!! and its so sensitive, whenever it sees me, it barked like nonstop! hahah! But Hougang is tempting me to explore that place. Cause its quite foreign to me. I guess I'm gonna go there and ask Jasmine to bring me around! Hope she don't mind. Heheh! :P

Went out to catch up with my good friends too! We cycled ALOT, I would say. Hahah! My cycling standard is not progressing! aiyoh!! Hhaha! But was quite fun + tiring though. :)

WHOOO!! Meeting with Wendy Neo was POWDERFULL man!!! The presence of God was so THICK! and I LOVE IT!

Saturday IRIS AND VERDIYAN came!!!Pastors weren't around, as they're in Pastor Cho's church in Korea. Garrett and some of the other leaders also. And we're watching the video sermon by Pastor Cho here in Singapore! Hahah! Cool! :D Anyway, its really cool!

The Tabernacle Prayer. I've done it, and I'm really blessed by it. I'm so refreshed now, in the spirit, and Faith arise!

you gotta do it too!!Really!

2008-05-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

We're really like studying man!

hahah! She even guided me in some physics questions..

lots and lots...

2008-04-28T01:06:00.003+08:00

Let me intro you to one of the important people in my life.

This is my mama!

Love her!

I don't wanna disappoint her.

So I wanna study!

Of course also to glorify God! :)

Faith-filled

2008-04-27T23:45:00.007+08:00

After E5 worship session!

<3> and me just being zi lian. XP

Nice. Very blurr though.

Wendy and Liyue. <33

2 days before worship session, this week, I decided to open my Bible after I had a short cry out to God, and He brought me to this verse in John 15 :1-8. Its like God telling me to tap on His strength, and that without Him, I can do nothing. And it's so amazing that 2 days later, during E5 worship session, that Wendy Neo shared with us about this verse. It was super powerful. During worship session, God first showed me a blurred background, with a focused hand that's holding a blue cloth, in the middle. Then He showed me something. however I've forgotten. OH NO! This really taught me a lesson for not writing down my revelations!! Ahh!! I'm gonna seek God again. I'm gonna get at least 4 revelations each week!

Saturday
Pastor How preached about "Sowing Releases the Miracles of God", and its really powerful man!
God don't always just give us the apple that we asked for, instead He gives us the seeds. That's God's ways. That's how God moves.
And only when you sow, that you'll rip.
Like Hannah(if you know the Bible), I'm gonna submit my studies to the Lord. I'm gonna sow the seeds with sincerity, and patience.

~If you want happiness, GIVE happiness!~

Jasmine came!! I was really happy to see her! And knowing that she feels comfortable and happy to be with us! I love her lha! :D
She's gonna grow in God! :))

Hahah! was talking to Jianming, that's why I was looking to that direction. :D

By Random Jiayang. Its quite nice though. :)

Sunday
Todays meeting with Garrett really blessed me so much.Even though at first I was too tired, and even had the thought of not going, but my FAITH has defeated the Devil! Hahah!

Step 1. Faith!
Step 2. Pray and Proclaim to the mountain!

I've got the faith. Though so, I want more faith! I wanna grow more in faith!And my next step is to Pray more and Proclaim to the mountain!!
After Garrett's meeting. :)) Faith-filled people.

Diana, Huili, Xueli and Michelle came today, and sat with them! They are really very funny people. And I see the hunger that they have for God! Love it!! Love them! :D

Han showed me the video taken by Dick in Wayne's old phone. I miss Dick!

This is my hp wallpaper. Hahah! to wake me up every morning. Love you man Shermaine! :D

That's me and Jooyu! :D

Beehoon is pretty! :D
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It's really a previlege for me to see them grow in Christ! Lovesss!! <33>
Faith-filled .~ Muacks!

So Contented!!

2008-04-15T23:19:00.003+08:00

Hahah! I feel so contented! I've used my whole so well! my 9 hours spent in school, is at last not wasted! I've made used of every simgle time busy doing all my works, catching up with schoolworks I've left behind. Hhahhah! Thank you, Dad! I just love you! How I wish this will just keep on consistent.. then I get good results, glorify God and make my parents proud of me, especially my mom. :D

Spend so much fun, laughters and loves between us. Hahah! Xinyan!!!! It felt like as if everytime, we're going back to the time when we're so enjoying ourselves that we forgot about the world!! Just LAUGH OUT LOUD, SCREAM, SHOUT!!! hahah! missed it! Hahah! Thanks girl! Anyway, Night Study Program started today. We expected NOISE, NOISE and NOISE, but our surprise, its was quite quiet. Bedok Greenisss can behave in such a way that people are able to study?? Hahaha! Quite rare isn't it? Its good anyway, keep it up!! :D

I wanna stay like this!! or even become more focused than today.. hahah!!:D

~evi

Refuge.

2008-04-11T00:09:00.001+08:00

Ezekiel 44:1-3
1 Then He brought me back to the outer gate of the sanctuary which face toward the east, but it was shut.2 And the Lord said to me, "This gate shall be shut; it shall not be opened, and no man shall enter by it, because the Lord God of Israel has entered it; therefore it shall be shut.3 "As for the prince. because he is the prince,he may sit in it to eat bread before the Lord; he shall enter by the way of vestibule of the gateway, and go out the same way."
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Job 4:1-6
...5 But now it comes upon you, and you are weary;it touches you, and you're troubled.6 Is not your reverence your confidence?...

Recharged.

Happy 16th Birthday Jian Hong! and Happy Belated Birthday Bryce and Yaochang!

2008-04-06T05:29:00.003+08:00

I'm SO HAPPY TODAY!!! Liyue, WENDILY, Jianhong, Katherine and me, spent jianhong's birthday together. Heart to heart talk and got touched, had a reunion meal, and shared some "jokes" and laughters of our heart. It was really a time I believe everyone missed alot!!

See you tomorrow Kat!!!
just loves to be together!! :D

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Yesterday
Prayer meeting was so powerful! The presence of God so thick, that tears just kept rolling down my cheek. Pastors also prayed for some people, and Liyue was one of them whom Pastors have called out to be prayed for. So Powerful lha! God showed me an amount of money to pledge for this month's tithe!
We also had a great service by Pastor Kevin Loo! he is so FUNNY! So looking forward for tomorrow's service! :)

Loving...

Born to Win!

2008-04-03T23:50:00.012+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday Weiting!

Just started to really read the book, " Born to Win", by Ulf Ekman!! Given by Garrett, as my brithday present this year!!

"You need to think positively:....",

"When God reveals to you that you are a person of increase,

a positive foundation is laid in your life, and this is important

to maintain."

Don't try to give yourself excuses to explain away things!!

I was really ministered by every single sentence in this book. It's so applicable in my life, right now! :D

Thank you Garrett! :D

Just wanna share with you this classical music!

*Thank God for putting leaders and my brothers and sisters in my life!

Hanging on Evi.

Hanging on.

2008-04-02T23:08:00.007+08:00

Yesterday, 2ND April 2008.

I just lost my handphone!!!! So careless of me, leaving my handphone in the toilet, with the rest of dirty articles!! There goes my pathetic, half spoilt N90! I wonder who would be so desperate to steal a spoilt phone. Oh God, forgive them. Anyway I guess its time for it to go, in order for a new better one to come in. Think this is so true! Hahah!

jem says:maybe God wants you to get a better phone to honour him hahah
Evi 2.0 - 1 Timothy 4 :12 says:hahah
jem says:so that in the future your people work and usher ministry will be more effective
jem says:2.0 already.. handphone 2.0 also haha
Evi 2.0 - 1 Timothy 4 :12 says:hhahah
Evi 2.0 - 1 Timothy 4 :12 says:yeah!!!
Evi 2.0 - 1 Timothy 4 :12 says:thank you God!!!
jem says:LOL...

How I wish this will happen often, without my contacts to be affected. Hahah!:D
So for the time being, I guess I'll be using my super old number, 91042596. :D

2days ago,1st April 2008, April Fool Day!!

I was too sick in the morning to prank anyone.
Thoughts thoughts thoughts and thoughts... Suddenly there were so many thoughts on my mine. Thoughts about Yessica, Yuanping and even myself. All of a sudden, I just felt that I'm so like in Yessica's situation. So I pranged on Yueyue and Jianhong. I just type a long message, wanting to prank them :P
Right after pressing the "send" button, everything sent just appears to be so real to me, all of a sudden!! What's wrong with me?! Where's the assurance and faith?!
Expecting funs on this particular day, instead, almost immediately, after reading his reply, broke into tears. I mean, cries that make it difficult for me to take a breath. I believe anyone, who reads it, will also be deeply touched. Followed by Liyue's sms. I felt so much enlightened and encouraged. They're really the one man! Just love them!

Clarence!!! Sending the exact sms that Shermaine sent to Jianhong!
Clarence: Evi! I know you don't like me. But do you have to talk behind my back?
Evi: Huh? What did i do?
hahah! My heart almost died there lha! So I called Clarence, to get a clearer picture. Ended up with " APRIL FOOL!"Hahah! Shermaine's(if I'm not wrong) "hello, Evi!" was heard! Hahah! Funny sia you guys!

Photos filled with emotions...(Love them)

I need......

evi's sleeping now!~

I'm Back Blogging!!

2008-03-27T23:46:00.009+08:00

Hey hey!

I'm Back after years!!:D

Whoo! After so many years, at last I've found the GREAT GREAT CHURCH,

HEART OF GOD CHURCH!

Just in a split of seconds, it's gonna be my 1 year old in this house of God! I've seen so much changes in my life, after coming to my this MUACK MUACKs church! I just love heart of God church, the people there and, of course, the thick presence of God! Remember it was on Jianhong's birthday, Good Friday,06 April '07, that Jianhong brought me to church. And it was because it was his birthday and I don't wanna upset him. Hahah! However I will never regret coming to heart of God church. That was the day, I really felt the strong presence of God, after being a christian for years! I literally broke into tears as I sang the song "Could I Ever", as the presence of God was super strong. That day, I gotta know SO MANY PEOPLE! Frankly speaking, I can't remember any of their names. hehheh! :P But days or weeks later I saw these photos on Xinjie's blog...

1st photo: Xinjie, Caizhuang and me!:D

2nd photo:Xinjie, Caizhuang, Liyue and me. :)

3rd photo: Jianhong, me, Liyue, Caizhuang and Xinjie. X)

My Easter sermon notes.

The next week, was Sidney Mohede's concert! And I brought along my 2 close schoolmates, Chunhow and Sebastian! And like what Jianhong did, use birthday as an excuse to bring them 1 step nearer to knowing the Saviour! XP

(from xinjie's blog)

Followed by Yessica!

Taken on Pastor Lia's Birthday!!! it was so cool! :D
I love her lha! She's really a Loving leader! :P She guided me in my walk with the Christ and in building my foundations strong. She's the one who gave me all the follow ups! :D

I really thank God for putting leaders in my life! Lovveessss to Pastors, Garrett, Wendy and Xinjie! :D

Mark 16 : 7

"But go your way, tell his disciples and Peter that he goeth before you into Galilee: there shall ye see him, as he said unto you."

Even though Peter rejected Him 3times;

but HE'LL NEVER GIVES UP ON US!
___________________________________________________________________________________

And now, I'm in E5! Start leading people and learning to give follow ups, through sitting in Mabel's follow ups given by Jeremy Quek. I LOVE E5!! Everything have changed. Now, I live by faith. :)

Hebrews 11 : 1

" Faith is the substance hoped for, the evidence of things not seen."

This year is my O'levels, I wanna glorify God! I have faith that I'll get a glorifying results. Who says being committed in church, I can't get good results?! I'm gonna prove them wrong! :D

Faith + Unusual Acts = Breakthrough

James 2 : 17

" Thus also faith by itself, if it does not have works, is dead."

I'm going to go out there, impacting lives, influencing people, making a difference in one's life!!

1 Timothy 4 : 12

" Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity."

Misses Jasmine..

Hanging on & Growing Evi. :D

At last blogging again!

2006-12-09T16:07:00.000+08:00

Hey guys out there..

I'm back blogging again!it's been a very long time since i last blogged right?It's because my internet connections at home has some error. Over here, in Indonesia, in one hand, I find the days here quite boring, but at times, it's quite fun and interesting!!

You know what?! my cousin said that maybe she's gonna bring me to a PUB!!! cool huh?!

Guess some of ya's missing me alot right? And I must say that i miss you guys lots too!!hope i can go back Singapore and have fun with you guys as soon as possible.

Hao qi dai hui Singapore de yi tian.=>

Anyway i'm going back singapore around 30th dec. I hope when I get back there, you guys(my friends) will still remember me , since i've only left Singapore for just 2 months+.

Oh ya, I've one news for you guys..
I'm going to singapore somewhere around next week or the next. But it'll only be for around 2-3 days..

Oh my God! I think i've forgotten how to blog already!argh!!
keep contact guys..

butterfly..

Going back indonesia

2006-10-18T16:50:00.000+08:00

Hey guys.I'm now in the airport. I've got not much time actually, so just a very short post.

I'm leaving guys. I really will miss you guys lots. Especially, Xinyan, Zhongjie, Sheauyun(her nonsense), .........., sadly,that bastard too. I'm still have not decided yet. And i'll see my sis too, for those who knows what i'm talking about.

I'LL MISS YOU GUYS!!!

leaving butterfly.

Wonderful and Unforgetable Memory.

2006-10-17T00:40:00.000+08:00

Let me announce this first. I've learnt how to right bike!! hahas.

Okay let's rewind...
Today in school, was late, and got my overall results slip.
Eng 58 C5
Chinese 67 B3
Mathematics 60 B4
Science 76 A1
Geography 79 A1
History 63 B4
Literature 50 C6
D&T 75 A1
Homec 60 B4
Art 81 A1

In the afternoon, we, Xinyan, Zhongjie, Weiting, Lucus, Gieon, Sebastian and me, went to East Coast, and that's where the wonderful and unforgetable memory started, which is organised by Zhongjie.(sweet isn't it?) We went there to ride bike and have fun, before I'm going back to Indonesia. We rented 5 single bicycle, and 1 double bicycle(is that how you call it?), it's for me to ride actually, as I still don't really know how to ride bicycle. In the earlier part, of course I ride the double one, and was suppose to be with Xinyan, but ended up with Zhongjie. Woohh!! Was like so great. We're SPEEDING with Lucus!! As we kept leading all the way. hahas! So great! Then halfway through, It's Weiting's turn to ride with me and back to Zhongjie, when we went back to buy drinks. Ahh¬ Here's when I started to ride the bike on my own!! All the way till the end of the day. And in between, if not for their encouragements, I think I'm still not that steady in riding the bicycle. Then we've fun riding here and there, until we came to a break at the ???(I don't know what is it),where we sat down, admiring the waves, while enjoying the breeze. I should have brough along my handphone!!!The scenery was so nice. hais.

We then, continued to ride around, back and forth along that area, and even went out of East Coast, if I'm not wrong. Actually I wasn't very sure where we were riding at, but we went all the way from ano end, to the other end of the track. Although my stability wasn't that well mastered, I still get to ride quite smoothly through the tracks.hehe!!=P Not bad isn't it?? Thenn proceeded to eat dinner. Lots of things happened, the "wang de nan ren" hahas.Argh!!LOTS OF FUN!!!

At I don't know what time, Lucus, Gieon and Sebastian left, while the remaining of us continued cycling for a moment. Until 8.40pm, we returned the bikes, and I was quite unwilling to return it though, cause I still wanted to ride. Then here it comes, when I needed to pee so urgently. I felt it right after I came down the bike actually, and I thought that maybe Icould bear with it for a little while more. But, ARGH!!! I really need the toilet, at that time. Can't bear that long you know!! Was like, "okay, I must never laugh at this time!!" Asked them not to make me laugh or laugh in front of me at that moment. Then........(okay, it's too long for me to type them all out. So maybe find out on your own.)Xinyan was laughing like mad after that. Then, Weiting father fetched us to bedok interchange, and the rest is in the pictures...
Xinyan was looking out of the bus, being shy eh..hahas.The rest is in my friendster. Can't upload it here again. SO SUCK!

But Xinyan and Zhong made me so touched, that I cried. They're really so SWEET!!! It's the first time I cried because feeling too happy and so touched! No word can describe my these feelings!Love them so much!!

Although, he's not around,
It doesn't mean that I can't be happy!

Touched butterfly.

She's such a sweet girl.=>

2006-10-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

As mentioned, I'll be out with Xinyan today!! I met up at Tampines Interchange the old Xinyan!! The one that used to wear a t-shirt with a jersey bottom. AWw! (no offence arh.) Just don't really like it.

Luckily, later on we went to buy one set of outfit, a 1/2 black pants, with a white wonderful top, that were chosen by me! Wahaha!! It's her honour to have me to choose her clothings, isn't it? lol. Was just joking. The set were nice I should say, of course, especially the White top! Nice eh? She got changed right after that, as it's no way for her to dressed up in jersey. Actually there's 1 more clothe that she wanna buy, but this piece, she choose it. I must say it's nice too, or rather it's better than the one I chose for her.

Wooh!! you know what?! She really got me an anklet!! A nice one! Without bells also! Cause I don't really like those with bells on it. It's noisy, isn't it?

Later on, we went around Petal for a stroll. At first, we actually wanted to go to the fitness area, but unfortunately it was occupied, so we've no choice, but to go to other places instead.

This were taken in the toilet, before going back home.

Realise that there's a hand shadow? That's Yan's hand!! that idiot!lol.
Trying to act cute. wahaha!
Still got lots of other pictures, But it's so difficult to upload. So just look out at my friendster photos.

Headed home at around 11.15.

Thanks Xinyan!
For the anklet,
For the fun you've gave me,
And for EVERYTHING!
I LOVE YOU!
MUACKS!
I'll MISS YOU LOTS GIRL!

cheered up butterfly.=D

My unusual day.

2006-10-15T01:01:00.000+08:00

Woow! Ate alot today, and done alot of things that I normally don't do.

In the morning, read the book entittled "Totto-Chan The Little Girl At the Window". And surprisingly, followed by tidying up my table! Throwing 4 packets of rubbish from my table only. Now, I feel that my table is so empty, as it used to be so packed up the past few days.

In the evening, went out for dinner with my guardian and my sis, even though I've only eaten so much about less than 3 hours ago. We went all the way to Toa Payoh(is that how you spell?)'s food court, to eat Japanese Food, recommended by my sis, and it was nice. Woo!! just know that Toa Payoh has so many things to shop! Should go there to shop next time. But the sad thing is that I don't get to shop today, as my sis and me have got to got to Geylang Serai. Okay, let me emphasize this, it's Geylang Serai, NOT GEYLANG, that erhem place.

After walking around, and only got ourselves, an earring and henna on our legs, while we were buying "charkuay Fish", we met Saifuddin an he came over. I'm not close to him, so obviously he came upon seeing my sis if i'm not wrong. They're closer friends. Joined him and his friends till about 11.30, when we had to go home. They're so friendly I must say, and very funny! I had a nice time with them actually. Hey! We even took some photos, let me show you the two of them.

They're not bad isn't it?hahas.=D

Hey! Tomorrow gonna chill out with my Yanyan!! Yohoo!! Wondering whether she has thought of what kind of anklet she's gonna get for me. Wahahah!!! SOOo Looking forward to tomorrow's event Yeah?!haahhaa!

goodnight everyone!

love you guys!

so looking forward* butterfly

2006-10-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

Nothing much actually happened today. After school, just went home straight, used the computer for a while and went for a nap. In the evening, after my dinner, when to walk around my house pathetically, alone. Then before going home, went to the places where we used to go to. Feeling so lonely, so down inn the inside.

It got worst, almost right after i've entered my room. My things were messed up, on the floor and all over my place, not in their actual position when i left earlier. I guess she's again the one who did it. Later on, or some reason had a quarrel with her again, and ended up crying again. hais.

Why are her words seem to be so harsh to me?
Why she can make me cry so easily?
I don't understand why!

And why us it so difficult to overcome the feeling of loneliness in the inside?
I'm so sick of these!

sick(in the heart) butterfly.

2006-10-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

Hey!!My results, except for english, wasn't that bad actually huh?!hahas!

Let's start from the worst. It's none other than my History, which i've got at least a pass!!!52/1o0! I consider that as not bad already, cause I did improved by 2 marks from last year's End-of-Year Examination, even when I only schemed through on the day which the paper falls on.
Next is the MATHEMATICS PAPERS! The most disappointing one, cause this paper is one of the MOST INPORTANT for me, which I expected at least a 65 and above!! But what do I get?! 6o/1o0!! Big gap between my expectation and my actual result, isn't it? hais. No choice, I wasn't at good terms with any of my subjects then. The reason why I aimed to at least, is to get into the A Maths classes, but it seems like I've gotta just dream about it. So Disappointed.=<
Followed by my Chinese (a subject which is not important to me, but important to my parents), Which is expectedly 67/1o0. I can say I'm so emotionless upon receiving it.hahas. I don't care about this subject man.

WOOHOO!! Now i'm getting into the better results.

SCIENCE!
Which I can say, a subject which I like and interested in since Primary 4 or 5.haha!78/1o0!!! Great isn't it?? cheehees!=D(so Happy!)

GEOGRAPHY!
My favourite subject, ever since I started learning it. Maybe it's because I will normally score well on this subject. The score was unexpectedly high actually, 85/1o0!! Feelling so great receiving such a result!heeheee!!=)

Best of all!!! ART!
Wahahahaha!!!!!! It's best when she announced that i've got the FORTH in class! Wah¬ Thefeeling was real GREAT!89/1o0!!!!!ARHHHH!!!! Maybe to some people, I'm just being exaggerating, but the truth is this is the first time, after so long, I get to be the top few in any subject. Actually on that day, when I sat for the art paper, I lost my idea on what to draw all of a sudden, and was stucked there thinnking of what to draw for quite some time. It was like so contenting when I've finished my Wonderful(to me) art piece that I've drawn, but was quite compunction, as I've agreed with Xinyan that we're not gonna use any colourings, which i've forgotten and ended up with mind with extra colour of blue and red. I'm really sorry Yanyan..

In the afternoon,went to wait for my gu zang for about an hour plus, ended up in vain, as he didn't turn up at all. So went to meet Yan at her house. Yoohoo! Was a great time spending time with her! Her room was fabulous(is that word meant to be used that way?), I think. hahas. And finally, she has got an iPOD NANO, which she has been wanting to have since last year, from her brother.whoo! Envy her so much, how I wish my elder brother would buy me anything, even a small keychain will do. We walked around, ate waffle and drank Paopao cha, while chatting all the way, even until we've reached the Fitness area, between block 604&607. While lying down on Yan's lap, I slept for 1/2hr, that's what Yan told me. Got up, and proceeded back home at about 1o.15, and on the way she promised me that she's gonna get an anklet fr me!!! A very nice one!! Just before my bus came, we saw Xue Jun, I don't think she remembered me actually, but I smiled.hahas.Cause it's really a nice day.

Better get started thinking of what kind of anklet you should get for me alright?lol..=D

Only the two of you can make me stay,
While the other two will make me go.
So PLEASE stop me!( to the two special people)

Stronger Butterfly

2006-10-10T17:12:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!! Blogging here.
The passed few days wasn't that interesting.
Almost the whole day were watching "Goong". hahas.

Except for yesterday, hahas, was actually really sorry to Sebastian.
At first, two days back we, Chunhow, Sebastian and me, actually already set that yesterday afternoon 12.30, we'll be meeting at Bedok interchange, and go out together.
But it turn out quite bad in the beginning.
First of all, that idiot Chunhow went to Johor, made me have the thought that everything was postpone on cancelled, so I thought that I didn't have to turn up.
Then I was only informed that it's still going on, and Sebastian was waiting at Bedok interchange.
ARGHH!! Feel so bad about it! I actually made him waited for about 2 hours, long right???!!

But eventually, we still met at Bedok interchange, with me arriving there. When I've reached there, he still can actually smile to me.Wooh! Such a patient and nice guy right? He indeed a nice guy.
earlier, we didn't know where we wanted to go, but after hearing that there's a new place at HarbourFront, we decided to visit that place.
When reached there...ohooh! That place is both not that suitable for teenages like us, who were just walking around, and it's still so empty. So we went on to Suntec, while chit-chatting on the way.
We felt hungry, then he brought me to Kenny Rouger. Then it was like "WO0o¬", cause I think it was the first time I went to eat at such a place. I was like so stupid there, not knowing what I should eat, so he helped me to call for a lighter set.The foods' supposed to be light, but they both looks filling and really very filling! He said that we should eat slowly so that we won't get full that fast. So we chatted, while eating, from about 3.00 to about 6.00, was almost 3 FULL HOUR!!! Even those who came later then us, left earlier than us.hahas. The thing was, we were enjoying talking, and sharing our experiences that we've forgotten about the time. Anyway that Chnhow would only join us at 9, so we still had plenty of time.
While eating he taught me how to use the knife correctly, and stuffs. He was like my brother to me, even though, maybe those around us may thought that we were couples.hahas. The foods were really delicious!!YUMMY!! You guys must try!lol.

After spending such a long period of time, then we realised that it's time for us to leave that place, and moved on to go to walk around Suntec, while letting the time to run. Just a few walks, and my stomachache comes again. NEED THE TOILET!! Surprisingly, yesterday I took very short time in the toilet!hehe.

While walking, he decided to bring me to eat Ben & Jerry's IceCream, and that was after we felt much better after the "BIG" meal. On the way we were attracted to the chocolate at "Chocz", as we both like CHOCOLATE!!hahas. Stopped by and chose 2 kinds of chocolates, so 2 each, 2 thick chocolates with liquor and 2 dark chocolates(my favourite!). They're so YUMMY!!and the price were also WOOW!!!hahas. We thought it's already rather expensive, until we went to buy 2 cherry-sized chocolate,no no should be just slightly bigger, with liquor. It taste even BETTER and the price was like...WAHH!!!!!$4.40 for each! Luckily, we only ordered 2 pieces, which is already $8.80. The taste of the chocolates were so strong, that feeling of the chocolate stayed in my throat for quite some time. Until we went to buy Haagen-Dazs icecream. At first, it wasn't that sweet, but after a while, it's so damnn sweet! I thing if Xinyan's around she won't like it.hahas.

At night, we met Chunhow and drank a bottle each and home!
I must really thank Sebastian a lot! Waited for so long, taught me alot and even treated me so many things.hahas.

Getting fatter,
But feeling so happy.
It's like endless things to talk about.
hahas.
Thanks to the both of you,
Sebastian and Chunhow!=>

Still can't forget him.
Happy butterfly.=D

2006-10-04T14:35:00.000+08:00

Thanks God!
For the everything.
I love you Lord!=)

woohoo! The papers of the past few days were like quite okay actually, and that's all thanks to You!Have been going to Yanyan's house these days also, and it was quite fun. But after the Art paper, I feel that i'm already in a holiday mood man!

Hey boy! i'm not an owl alright! Don't call me that again!

hmm..
I 've got nothing much to blog actually. Just wanna tell everyone out there that i'm free from studies by tomorrow for this year. Yoohoo! kinda happy that i've completed my education of the year. Tomorrow is Mathematics papers, saying the truth doesn't really care about it aready, as like i've said, I'm already in a HOLIDAY MOOD!
Okay gonna try to do some revisions for tomorrow!

So wanna ask you what exactly had happened in the first place.

Just Butterfly

2006-10-02T22:17:00.000+08:00

Just had my geography and home economics papers today.For goeg,overall was okay, just that i've got messed up between certain questions, while homec, I can say, most the questions in the paper was a stranger to me. Nevermind, I don't wanna let it affect my other subjects. Actually, I must thank God for listen to my prayer last night!=DAlso thanks to Zhongjie, for giving me some notes that i didn't note down, and the chocolate that Sebastian given me this morning.=>

After school, went to Yanyan's house to slack, so bored then, as she's watchingthe YouTube, so went on messing out with her hair. And everything turned out to be like this..

Nice?

I'm suppose to be finishing my art prepwork now, but I need a rest man. Ya, thanks lots Sebastian for helping me to print those stuffs too!=) without his help, think I won't be able to do the prepwork now, and at least finished drawing these. I can say i'm very satisfied in my these sketches.From an hour glass...
sketched into..
then overlapping...

From this picture...
To this...

phew! But I still have not even started studying for History! Great! Okay,gonna continue with my work right now..end.

still didn't managed to forget him. cries¬

streessed*butterfly

It's such a bad day!

2006-10-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

Today I woke up late!!ahh!!!I wanna go to church.I wanna to go and praise and worship you God!I really need you Lord!But I woke up at 11.45, and it's too late for me to go to church.hais.In the end, I ended up staying at home almost the whole day studying and using the computer.

In the morning, had a bad stomachache and went to relieve everything, that were stored inside me for a week plus, out and it took about 45 minutes for me to do it.And i'll just pass out everything that i ate this morning and early afternoon.Then continued with my Geography notes, which I didn't really managed to capture what I was writing on the notebook. I was also messaging Sebastian at that time, and I've to thanked him for taking the trouble to help me to print out my art prepwork's pictures, despite the problems with his printer or stuffs.Really have to thank him lots!=>After that, he even promised me for giving me chocolates, if i'm not wrong, if I really studied for the next paper.YooHoo!!But it seems like I don't deserve it anymore,as I didn't really get to concentrate in studying.Nothing actually went into my mind.hais.

Till in the at night, when I was calling Yanyan to revise, that idiot Frica distracted me, while i was revising.And there it goes again. I cried.I just can't stand her words.They are like needles poking through my heart when she said those words to me.It seems like she have never failed to hurt my feelings with her rudeness towards me.Why can't she for ONCE show me some respect?!As whatever it is, I'm still older than you alright!And just because of this incident, she managed to ruin everything, especially my mood to study!AH!!! Tomorrow is already the paper,and i've not even really studied 1 whole chapter!and yet, I still have another subject to study!SHIT!!!Ended up only one of my 'family member', a cockroach, actually accompanied me at the living room.So pathetic!

It seems like i'll need to stay up the whole night studying.

hais.Can they just consider my situation?!

Pathetic*butterfly.

2006-10-01T01:20:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 28.09.2006

When there's a beginning,
There's an ending.
No point reproaching yourself in remorse for
What you have done,
And what you have not done.
Just let everything flows the way it is,
As what's done can never be undone.
So what you can do,
Is just to wait.

It's the very first time I'm blogging here. I'm so confused here. The approval letter that I've always been waiting for, at last is given to me. I so confused as to how I felt after receiving it. Am I feeling happy? No, I wouldn't say I'm feeling happy. I just don't know why, as I thought I was suppose.

School was quite boring today.In the morning, we had a History test,which I've totally forgotten about it.Luckily,it was so simple that I can simply get a 10/10!!hahas.After that,I'll just do whatever assignments that were appointed to me today, and will just do as I'm being instructed. I wonder how I can get back to the me that I used to be.Going out with friends,chit-chatting,and stuffs.I don't know why, I just can't interact with those i used to now.Friends are really drifting apart from me.or should is it that I'm the one walking away from them.I really Don't know!!!

I guess I've changed alot.I got more and more easily frustrated by anything around me.Maybe it's because my mind is always filled by those memories.Memories that will always be there for a very long period of time.

Came back home right after school and expect my guardian to be waiting for me at home and prepared to bring me to go to the British Cousel(I idon't really knows how exactly it is spelled)In the end,I just rot at home,doing nothing.

To say the truth,I'm really disappointed today.

Yesterday

Such a short,
Yet a difficult day for me.

School was like so short, but yet I was feeling so stressful. In class, I was really trying my very best to revise my Geography in my free periods and even Geography lesson. Yes, I did my notes, but everything that was written in my notebook was like dead words, that can't enter my brain.tsskk!!! Why can't I just concentrate?!

After achool, I need to go to Tanjong Pagar,to the Britich Cousel, to process my UKvisa. I've never wants&hate to be lonely at any point of time, so first person came into my mind to ask to accompany me there, was Xinyan. And that Yanyan keep rejecting me and asked me to beg her first and then she'd think about it. lol. Idiot right? But in the end she just followed me over. Do you believe that someone could actually mistaken us as twins?!Ah!

After, the long, an hour plus of waiting, we proceeded to Xinyan's house and went home at about 1o.45.At first there were moments of silence, followed by me teaching that girl the Art prepwork stuffs& ideas. Everything changed after that. I can't and don't wish to hide my problems from her. Her face is like always telling me "Come on! Just tell me!" that kinda stuffs. Then the next moment, I just burst into tears. NO!NO!!! I don't wanna cry! but no matter how hard i tried to control, I just can't!Why can't I just clear him off my mind?!

Hope she can find her true angel to understand and hear her out.
things are gonna be fine girl.

God please help us out!

Today

Oh my God! My eyes are so swollen today. Actually at first, it was fine, but got worsened when the people in my guardians' house came to me and "broke my heart" even more.hais.At that moment, I just felt like getting out of my guardians' house, and even wanted to go back Indonesia to continue my study next year.

So I called Xinyan, Zhongjie and even Sebastian, whom i just get to know recently, to study at a voideck. Since the time when they came, I've no mood to study already, again, nothing can go into my mind!So i was like daydreaming there and they're doing their revision there till about 4 plus. We then chatted till Xinyan joined after her tuition. There, Zhongjie and Sebastian was like chatting and laughing like as if they're real good+close friends, although they just got to know each other today. Then we had dinner together, when they talked about the "england"fries instead of frenchfries.lol.

Sebastian went home at about 7 plus 8 and about 9.30 we walked to Xinyan's place through Bedok Town Park.It was quite fun journey i should say, as we got frightened by some small little things and reached the fitness corner at about 11.25. But when we were about to leave at 11.50, something made me real scared, that shadow, I was so scared that on the way back home, all the way till I've reached home , I talked to Sebastian all the way, even though we didn't really have any topic to talk about.Phew!

Suppose to study today, but ended up didn't really studied. Nevermind, just take it as a rest, as I quite enjoyed my day today.=)

why wouldn't he give me another chance?
you're still in my heart.

waiting&disappointed butterfly.